I do the same thing everyday… Every week is a pattern I can’t escape. My alarm goes off at 7:00 every morning and I always sleep an extra 10 minutes after that. Then i turn on the blinding light in the bathroom and wish I was still in bed. I put in my makeup then do my hair, get dressed then brush my teeth. It’s always the last thing I do. After that I rush off to school and just make it in time. Every morning I think about how if I had not slept those extra 10 minutes then I’d be early for school and tell myself I’ll do it tomorrow. I never do.

I sit in history listening to my teacher speak and then pretend to be a penguin with my friend during the national anthem. I always pack up my bag after the bell and my friend always tells me I should have gotten ready before the bell. Then I sit in English class and listen to Bon Iver or the Head and the Heart and dream about doing something with my life. Or how I wish I could sing better….. That where I am now and instead of preparing and essay or talking to my friends i sit here typing this and hoping someone will read it and understand how I feel…. Because life is so predictable and painful and I have to do something about it….